I Love Me

Let’s start with the obvious. Yes, it’s been a while. Yes, I’m still alive. Yes, there have been some pretty massive changes.

Geez, you have no idea.

I can’t get into the specifics yet, but wheels are in motion. I haven’t forgotten about this blog or my two readers. (You guys still there?) I just … I didn’t know what to say. Hell, I’m not even sure what I want to say.

Do you know how rare that is? I’m usually the girl who won’t shut the fuck up!

But you know how it is when you’re overwhelmed with emotions, right? I’m leveling out, but for months I’ve been bouncing from feeling great to feeling like shit and everywhere in between.

Stress is still high, but I’m doing a better job of dealing with it.

Which, I guess, brings me to what I want to say here. I often do a crap job of giving myself grace. I expect perfection way too often, and that’s just silly. Especially when things are all wonky like they are now. Just showing up and doing my best is pretty fucking epic on some days.

So I’m trying to be as kind to myself as I would be to someone else. There. That’s your moral.

Also, I really wanted to say something here just because it had been so long. So … mission accomplished? I think so.

Love yourself first and everything else falls into line. You really have to love yourself to get anything done in this world.”

– Lucille Ball