She seems to be stronger,
But what they want her to be is weak.”
–Pearl Jam, “Why Go”
I find that when I rally, one of two things happens. Either the universe seems to align with my new-found focus or everything just sort of goes to shit.
Here’s what’s funny about that. Those seem like opposites, but they co-exist more often than you’d think. At least for me. Consider, if you will, my current circumstances.
I’ve made no secret of the fact that life is, ahem, challenging for me at the moment. That hasn’t changed. And no cure-all solutions have fallen magically from the sky. Nope. There are plenty of mountains to overcome as I trudge along my little path.
But while everything’s not ice cream and foot rubs, it does feel like the universe is … I don’t know … pulling for me?
It’s hard to explain, but I don’t feel like anything is hopeless. Instead, I feel kind of optimistic. Like all of this is a crucible and the strongest parts of me will emerge stronger.
And you can call that an self-induced Jedi mind trick if you wanna. Whatever. If it works, it works. And let me tell you, it works.
When I tell myself the universe is in my corner, it’s easier to be happy. Easier to keep pushing toward my ultimate goals. Easier to believe that each day really can be better than one the one before.
If you’re always negative, you’re setting yourself up for constant defeat. Hope, on the other hand, breeds possibility.